restless

i've been quite frustrated with doing the raw food thing at home lately. frankly, my mom just isn't committed to this whole thing, and although she's really into things like green juice and salad, i think her eating habits are pretty terrible.

she eats rice crackers and almond butter non-stop, and it seems as though that's the only thing she eats. i don't feel like she varies her diet enough! when she does vary her diet, it's usually restaurant food, and then she feels sick, so she eats more rice crackers with almond butter.

everyone has been pretty fed-up with the changes i've made around the kitchen, so i've had to move everything to the basement to appease everyone. even that has made my dad mad i think. he says i've taken over his beer fridge.

despite the fact that i think my mom's intentions are quite good (and the fact that she has come a LONG way) i feel annoyed lately.

sure it's immature that i get so touchy about her lack of enthusiasm for it all, but i really want to help her, and frankly, i see her health problems as something quite easy to fix. (a foolish assumption i know...) but she keeps reiterating that diet isn't 100% of the answer, and i definitely agree. but if you can't seem to master the mental/emotional component of it all (i.e. taking the necessary steps to relax and allow yourself to mentally heal from hyper-thyroidism) then you might as well be eating as purely as possible... in otherwords, if you can't commit to resting and healing, then at least eat well. and it's not like she has to do any work! i do all of the (un)cooking anyway!

this is more of a venting post so forgive me, but everyone sees me as being crazy. it's also kind of hard because everyone in my family thinks that i've been reclusive and reluctant to go out as a result. so much centers around eating and i feel as though choosing to eat so well has alienated me from my family.

i wish my mom was at least on board. i will just have to settle for about 60% of her support for now.

best,

cliff